So I started this blog last month with the hopes of just writing in order to become a better writer. and also to have something to do. I had just quit my job and was getting ready to move back home to Georgia. I wrote two in three days and havent touched it in a month until now. I am now home. yay me!!! Ten years is a very long time to be away from home but I had to get away to find myself. I did a little bit. So coming home i knew it would be different. I would be staying with my mom for a few months, i would be without a job for the first time in 12 years, all my friends have moved away and i’m not the same boy that left ten years ago. I have been home for almost three weeks now. For the most part it has been everything i thought it would be. I have had a lot of alone time to think about my life. The past, the present and the future. They all go together like a bonfire, beer and a guitar. One of the main things i have figured out is I have to let go of the past. The things i did, the person i was and how i thought. I need to let go of the mistakes i made. I need to let go of past relationships. of course my future will be determined by what i’m doing now. I need to finish school, which i am in the process of doing. I finally got my AA. I just need to figure out what to do with my degree when i’m done. How I interact with people and the relationships i will build now will impact the rest of my life. My time is running out i need to figure this out. Right now all i know is when i really think about it, i’m glad i came home. It may not be what i want be it’s what i need. I feel that i need to rebuild relationships. One of the ones i’m stoked about is the one with my dad. We never had a good relationship and I think i’m ready for that now.
So as i’m sitting here listening to Eric Church i can’t help but think about life and what it is. Country music seems to get a bad rep unless it is Taylor Swift and the rest of this pop-country crap. If you actually sit down and listen to it, its real stuff. its about life. It’s real. I have always listened to country music and i always will. There are lessons to be learned in it. Country music gets me thinking more than any genre i feel. Right now i just want to enjoy my life. I want to earn a honest living. i want to enjoy my friends and family. because in the end thats all that matter. And again i’m glad im home. I can do all those things here. I cant do them away from here. There was a point this past week that i thought i made a mistake coming home. But other thinking about it, nah. i’m good here. This is where i belong. My heart is here. It always has been. i just needed to leave to see that. My buddy Chad and I use to talk about the south often. he is from Michigan but has lived in a few states down here and he loves it. he would take about the people and how kind they are, the food and how great it is, the music, the weather and of course the women. The women here are amazing. There is nothing like them anywheres. I say i’m not going to get married but if i do it has to be a southern women. so its a good thing i’m home now. Just in case i change my mind. Most of the time our conversations about the south would come up while listening to country music. again there it is. Country music gets the mind going. lol.
i can’t wait to see what life has in store for me. Its going to be exciting. i know that much. I mean i’m Ray Moore, I’ve been described as cool, awesome, hot, video games, the hottest, and real real hot. so yeah its going to be good. I just have to get there. I’m slowly taking the steps to get there. But in the process im going to enjoy every second of it. Im going to make the best of it. I’m home for good. I’m not going anywhere. Home is where the heart is.
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